Anthem of Russia

Have i ever mentioned how much i love Russia ?

Haha. Anyways, Russia's current anthem - which was approved in 2001 by Putin; the rock version by Lubeh group. So much loves. (:

4 guys from one class. Heh. I swear it's almost like a curse.

So Neighbour's back in tekong this morning. Do pray that it's something less sever than a slipped disc.

I think food's been pretty hostile to me today. First i scalded my tongue during lunch and then i cut myself with my dinner. And it's a pretty deep cut that i have yet to dress. Still, quite amusing, really.

It's been a weird day.

*wiggles toes*

My voice is so gonna be gone tomorrow after service. I get the feeling that if i cough a couple more times i'll start seeing blood. Yup, pretty raw.

Anyways, i'm determined to pick up that musical box i saw the other day. Ha. Shall psycho Kael to help me get it since she can get a staff discount for it. Hurrr.

Dinner with Ting was pretty awesome. Just sitting there and talking about things. Sometimes i wonder if i can be a better friend for her than just these occasional sessions. Today's talk made me feel like an Andrew-like kind of friend. There when needed but not there often enough. Still, enough with the "what ifs" and well, thanks girlfriend for the annoyingly true slogan on the pencil case. Hahahaha. Book binding lesson once your papers are done. (:

cheeze choc

Well, after sooooooooooooo long i finally saw the love of my life aka Andrew again. And my busy and ditsy policeman forgot the date and was completely clueless until post-lunch when he started going all "oh crap. it's your birthday today!" Hahahaha. 'drew, you bloody crack me up when you do that every year, still, you bought lunch (as usual), so stop feeling so bad about it. (:

On other notes, caught 27 dresses with Eugene in the afternoon. Honestly, i believe he likes watching these bimbo movies but just wants to blame me for dragging him there for his 'image's sake'. Thanks for the cake and volume 8. (:

I bet you were mentally kicking yourself for letting me eat such an unhealthy dish with my bad throat. Hahahah. Which reminds me, i need to call up and order one for later. Hurrr.

Halfway through the movie, i got a text from my dear Neighbour saying he's in the hospital getting an x-ray done which pretty much freaked me out until i repeatedly reminded myself that 'bugs are hard to kill'.

Met Nigel and SiRong in the evening and finally had my tissue prata ! But really, the one at changi tasted much, much, much better. Andrew let's go for 2am prata ! (:

Nevertheless, thank you Nigel for the prata and SiRong for the 2 cans of Chicken Vegetable soup (they didnt have Chicken Alphabet soup there).

My ears got assaulted later that night on our way to Neighbour's place with the two clowns singing (and dancing to) backstreet boys songs. Talk about agony. Reached home at about 1.30 and am meeting Ting tonight for dinner. So feel like dragging her down for some lamb. (:


Also, big thanks to all the well wishes. Sorry if i lost some of your numbers ! And yes David (and Reuben), HAPPY ENLISTMENT DAY ! (:



Ps. Did i mention that surprisingly my Dad remembered my birthday this year ? Ha.


Pps. Yes WeiQin my dear Kangaroo, i've just joined you guys in the nineteen family ! Adriel, you're next in line !

According to the doctor, it's not the flu. Was wondering how come i lacked the running nose..

Was just a throat infection, coupled with my lack of sleep lately. Still, almost fainted at the bus stop just now. Same sensation as a year back at Wenxin's place. Ears plugged in, vision gets completely black. It's scary, the fact that you might faint out in the streets with no one you know beside you. Desperately fumbled for the phone but was useless even after finding it because i couldnt see.

It's crazy, when your eyes are wide open yet you see nothing but darkness. Thankfully i was leaning against the bus stop's seats' railing and so managed to support myself until i regained a bit of sight - could see bus outlines in purple - and legs were less wobbly. Sipped a bit of water and after a while managed to regain sight; you cant imagine how relieved i felt. I quickly rang home to get the maid out. And just after i did so, Ting rang up and came over to accompany me to the doctor's.

Feeling much better now after eating some porridge and taking my medication. Still, i think i freaked quite a few people out today with what happened. A big big apology to Eugene, SiRong and Ting. Especially my dear Ting, that you have to send me home even. Shucks. That was my job ! Hahaha.

I was spending the whole day thinking of that. I swear bio's burnt my brains. I need a doctor not the stupid influenza structure !

Cup with water is heavy. Need to type report. Argh. I need to throw up.

Getting the flu sucks.

what could i say,

So it happened. Judging from the fact of how we are, i wonder if i would have expected it to. Nevertheless it did. It's like God decides that after what i've put Daniel through, it' my turn to go through it this round. As Joshie mosh said a couple of weeks back, "you cant even if you wanted to". Yet the gears were set turning and things took place.

What say you my heart, what say you my head ?

My dear Lord, worth so much, so much more. It's painful, that this happened, after 2 years of lies. Ironically we went through the same topic in cell that day. What you want, and what you need to do. I'm sorry love; indeed, He's worth so, so much more.


And so the heart agrees; to surrender this relationship to the Most High.


So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

lynchpins.

Remember my promise ?


I will, as long as you remember to keep it.
Good night.

Commonwealth Sec 2 Adv. Camp

Finally back from camp. Yesterday actually but i was so groggy and tired i just kept sleeping. Slept from 3 to 6, work up, ate my chicken alphabet soup; 6.30 to 10.10, Neighbour rang up from camp, talked for a bit then he went off to shower and i went to ask my maid for a cup of honey, then slept at 11.10 after we got off the phone till 5.30 this morning when he texted; crashed again after some 10 minutes till i finally woke for the day at 9.30am.

Nevertheless, this week seemed soooooooooooo long. Must be the whole time warp at camp thing. Forgive me if i'm talking funny, i suspect the brain's gears have yet to shift back to "Normal" mode yet..

Anyways, camp was chaotic in some ways. My group gave me quite some trouble on the first day. Seems like i've gotten some trouble makers from the school. Still, in short, managed to pull through, somehow. Met interesting people too. Yup..

The girls were pretty friendly, the guys, ha, i had 4 pretty small sized guys. They look like they're pri 6 kids ! It was hilarious when 2 of them tried to spot for a larger sized guy during the low wall. I shouted then about how, "Eh. Why is there only two small-sized guys spotting ?"

And we have quite a few pretty names in the group too ! Sovasky ! Pretty name, and he's small sized too. He said i wasnt loud enough. Oh well. Another interesting comment i got on the evaluation survey was that"you should continue smiling if not you will grow old fast. And i dont like you frowning". Haha. The other comments were mainly apologies about how "if i made you angry". Shucks. I think i have a slight love-hate relationship with them. Reminds you of someone else no ?

I mean, despite how exasperated they made me feel at times, i have to admit, i did enjoy myself, most of the time. And i'm pretty glad that they did like the camp despite the miserable portion of food - i had to sneak them the biscuits i brought, the long walks, the tiring hours..


Also, during debriefing, Wei Qin and i shared a cake for our (upcoming) birthdays. In which i think i look like a spastic banana (yes laugh you people, my mum bought bananas too, so the first food i saw once i got off the cab was bananas too. Sighhh). And where Ivan and Adlin did some sexy dancing.

Met Neighbour just now after lunching with brandon. Popped by olps to use the adoration room to pray before walking home with jo. I think it's getting worst. Joshua's right i guess. I'm pretty doomed. Brandon laughs at how i seem to know their scheduel inside now, break times and such; because these are the times i'll get a message from Jo. Heh. God, please pull me through this; dont let me falter; not now, not him.



The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems,
forgiven I’m alive, restored set free.
Your majesty resides inside of me,
forever I believe. forever I believe.
arrested by your truth and righteousness
your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
convicted by your spirit, led by your word
your love will never fail
your love will never fail
‘Cause I know you gave, the world your only son for us to
know your name, to live within the saviours love and he took my place,
knowing he’d be crucified and you loved.. you loved, a people undeserving!

Latest project. After finally figuring out how to use the sewing machine, i finally decided to get up and do something crafty before running off for camp. I'm really in love with the funky colours of the skulls on the fabric.

Did another with the monkey fabric i bought but my sister being the monkey lover that she is ran off with it. Still, pretty happy with my initial attempt to sew something decent with the sewing machine.

Think i shall do my whale tomorrow right after i pack. This way, i'll have a new plush for camp ! (:

I hope you realise, you're not making things any easier for me.

It's gonna be a LONG, LONG, CRAZILY LONG week.

*twiddles thumbs* We're both idiots.

Hello Warren ! Every time i see spongebob i think of warren. This is uber stupid/funny.

Anyway, finally got my pixy stix from eugenia's mum but turns out that instead of the regular ones it's the giant stix. And as usualy, my dear girl gave me an abundance of stix. I've 50+ at home now. 4 left over from my previous hunt, 50 that she gave. And yup, Doing your math, they're worth 125 bucks here. Talk about insanity on high.

And just for laughs, just now i was trying to upload some stuff into/from my phone's memory card. So seeing how the size resembles that of the camera's SD card, i slotted it into the camera's memory slot. And wow, it was smaller and instead of pullng out, i stupidly pushed it in. When i realised the err of my way, i immediately tried to pluck it out. But after some 2 minutes of desperation, i took a pen knife and started trying to scrape it out. Not succedding, i took the clips i used for my craft work to try and pry it out too. Not working, shut of computer and continued the pulling, prying, scraping act. Some 10 minutes later, i was stuck in the same predicament, mentally going "i. am. so. screwed."

Thank goodiness i somehow managed to get it out. Still, warning to all you kiddos out there to not do something as awesome as what i just did. Pixy stix anyone ? (:

Hair Cut !

I'm pretty happy with it actually. Was debating with myself for sooooooo long before i told the guy to snip. Before that was only planning for a slight trim and such. Was liberating. Luckily i didnt meet Daniel tonight after all. Think he'll start sighing. Hahahaha.


Eugene (Don) and Jansen rang up today to whine/talk/nag about things. Jansen was reluctant to believe my haircut was any change. Eugene was eager to come down and look at it/laugh at me. But both said one common line, "why am i not surprised" when i answered that i have not been staying home the past few days despite canceling plans and deciding to do so. As eugene puts it, cancel the old plans and add in more new plans.

Oh well. It's still early but i'm so excited and cant wait for the weekend to come. Andrew old pie, the relationship is doomed from the start.

Got caught in the rain with Neighbour yesterday. Such a huge pourdown at the Art Museum, it was really beautiful. Wish i brought my camera along.


My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, amazing grace

You know what would be really awesome ?

Doing saviour king for worship later. :D


Anyway, got to rush off and get the photos ready now. It's been an awesome week ! (I do need to start staying home more often though)


Andrewwww, i'm going to vist my favourite note-taking, research-working police officer this coming wednesday for lunch alright ? And i want a big, big hug, just because i know you would if i asked. Hahahaha. Love you oodles !

As most of you should've known by now, i'm having a craving for tissue prata (for at least a month already) and so yesterday after the movie with Eugene and Neighbour (we caught Across the Universe), we headed off to Simpang to meet Nigel and SiRong.

Okay, maybe me and Jo headed to meet them, Eugene, as he claims, got dragged along by me.

There, happily, contented and very much excited, i ordered the prata. And almost as if it's a joke, the guys all ordered the same dish. Just when we were done, THE INDIAN UNCLE SAID NO STOCK.

Argh. While the guys were stifling their laughter, i was like mentally rolling on a grassy patch. Sigh. Still, was funny, relating how my giant lolipop cracked the other day and the comment Eugene made which while innocent in meaning, sounded really, really wrong.

Me(upset): The lolipop's cracked and has a bump

Eugene: Since there's a bump, just lick the head and make it go down

Left before the guys managed to do any grocery shopping (thank goodiness) and cabbed home with Joey as i promised Mumsy that i'll be home by 1am. Mumsy was pretty mad since i've been out everyday the past 3 weeks except for on New Year's Day (and that's only because i cancelled plans to stay home) and have been home late without giving any prior notice.

Still, oh well, Changi prata at 2am anyone ?

motion

Thinking of what happened four years ago when i was in sec 3 makes me wonder. Things changed, we changed. That time, falling for you, the one i considered as one of my closer friend was a mistake, perhaps. We played a game which we both lost; did we not, Andrew ?

Last year, a few months ago in fact, i played the game again. This time, the rules have changed. Made more bitter i guess. I won, yet i lost. No victory has ever tasted as painful as that did.

Last night, i almost agreed to play that game with another guy but convinced myself not to before we started. The cards were yet to be laid, yet i won. I dont like being a cynic but i'm afraid. I dont like the feeling of being as shattered as i felt back then. Besides, ironically, with Joey no longer as close by, i dont think i can survive another round if i lost.

I feel selfish. And as sorry as i am for who i am now, i wont look back.

Benji, guess i changed a lot didnt i ? Yet i wont turn back and wish for the braver and stronger me from 4 years ago.

Because God gave me a reason for this pain, this change;
the clock hand never moves back, only forward, always.

He isnt my boyfriend but i love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his kindness and the times when we laugh together, i guess i fell in love with our friendship.


Getting your heart broken by your best friend is the worst, isnt it ?

Some might say

So the year ended. Well, i've rounded up my school days already and honestly, life after which has been pretty much just going out, sewing, going out, buy fabrics, going out, checking out more patterns, going out, book binding and once again, going out.


(My lovely Neighbour just rang up to make me print stuff for me. I feel so loved. Zzzzz.)


Anyway, countdown at expo was fun i guess, but i wish we had more worship going on. Might be hitting Bedok Methodist, Cornerstone or SiRong's church the coming week i guess. Cant wait to start sewing my whalessss. Not to mention i need to go convince Gerald to gimmi his funny army cap. Hahahhahaa.

Before that, went out to ECP with Jansen (after all the nonsense, Mr. Prtty Whiny Pig wants to make up) to sit, reflect and make resolutions. He did actually, i merely re-read my planner and my scribbles on the year. It's been lovely seeing him again, although admittedly, we last ended off on a very very sore note. Still, i'm hoping for good changes in the year ahead !

Also, lately, HUGE seems to be the keyword of things. I bought huge pixy stix with andrew, got a huge chupa chups lolipop (strawberry flavoured) from a gift swap with the sec sch bunch and the church had huge, huge balloons dropped during the countdown (which i would have took if not because i doubted that it can be squeezed into the cab intact).

Guess maybe God's reminding me that He has HUGE plans ahead ! Hahaahhaa. So yea, HELLO 2008 ! :DD